Hello Drea, well I am in australia and had to sign up to answer you. It is 0321 in the am…. I have awoken from a dream where I was with my ex on a mountain hill surrounded by trees and a crack boom and trees started to come down, one here one there, One ended up coming down on a mountain type retreat house. Felt instantly alone, sad, she is not here to touch….no one is.

It has been less than a month since she told me of another and two weeks since I moved out and am sitting on my bed in a room in a strangers house after having just found this site and your message.  I have read much Buddhist and comparative religion etc from the time of splitting.

In fact when told and the subsequent splitting up moving and now financial work through I have stayed calm and emotionally removed as I could be. Totally accepting that all things move and change. I would not get back with her if that was possible…and believe me there is pain I am no spock….but acceptance and the pity/disbelief I have is mindful empathy and a love towards her….not for her.

As I said…I woke missing her so this is my mind working through things. Thursday just past dreams was two dreams waking up from where I was scrambling up muddy banks.

Belive me she has moved on and in quick time….I was not an asshole in this 6 year relationship and was blindsided. In fact we have a 3 day cruise with her daughter and son inend april – easter that I am still going on….how do I do that ……

Guess I have stumbled onto something bigger than both of us!!!!!!

But Drea it is hard – or why would I be awake writing this.

Much love and start to read the many great texts out there….I do suggest the book Buddhism for breakups by Meshel Laurie…a great aussie comic who writes this really helpful and relevant guide …..

Much love and best wishes on OUR shared journey in life.