Hi Anita

It’s both. It could be a thought that comes from nowhere, it could be something my husband says, it could be hearing from a connected member of the family (we are currently not speaking to my in laws), it could be hearing about an imminent family event – anything.

I am still so angry and frustrated. I don’t want to be. The very odd thin is that I think I am scared to let go. It would mean letting go of all the expectations I had and the way I think it SHOULD be. Even though I know I have to do this, a large part of me won’t and I know why.

It’s like I am obsessed – constant rumination and going over past events and hurts.