Sandy,
Thank you so much for your response!! I am definitely passing that article on! Wow! Very interesting!
I’m so happy I could help!

I was 13 when I FINALLY got a dog for my birthday. His name was Hydro and I begged for a dog ever since I was a toddler, so he was more than special for me. Dogs are probably my favorite beings in the whole world. Hydro and I went everywhere together. When Hydro was 10, it was his time to pass. Honestly, I tried to prepare myself for the loss. But, I had no idea how I would react. He was everything to me. I became somewhat bitter. I didn’t understand why he couldn’t live longer. Two years has passed. And the biggest and most important lesson I have learned is acceptance. I don’t understand why dogs are only given to us for a short time. The other thing that helped me was hearing this:

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

https://rainbowsbridge.com/poem.htm

hope this helps, good luck with your struggle. I hope you find the strength to grieve and heal.