thank you for your perspectives, i will consider reflecting on  that…

I find company annoying, it is disturbing me when I want to be left alone. Maybe because I wanted to win the attention of toxic people in the past, some how I feel I have turned into a toxic and bitter person. i had some embarrassing encounters and some have ill treated me. i don’t think i can shake it off, instincts tell me i always end up being used,  My mind goes to great lengths to tell myself it’s all just a lie, nobody would like me and ones who do have interest in me are there to use me for their selfish agendas.

i have good friends who are helping me to be better person, maybe it’s just me who wants to wallow in my self pity and sadness.

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