@anita

I wish i have the strength to control my feelings for her.
The days are too long for me now,
And every moments bring different memories,that just opens up my heart.
And i have to figure out to bear and control the urges.

@anita

I am trying not to talk to her,
Meanwhile trying to hold on my emotion,
Yes i feel sad about what happened.

But now i know,
IT is her choice to not continue her relationship with ne now,
May be her feelings has changed like she told me,
Or may be her priority has changed.
But in every thing that happend,
The outcome will be Same,
HER choice to break the relationship of such long years And Me loosing her.
That is her choice and this is what she wants now,like once she choose to be with me,Now she chooses Not to.
And i read some thing today that,
Love happens By Chance,But We Stay in Love By Choice.
Now she is not in love with me.
So what do i think and what she did,why she did what she did,
And my feelings and love at the moment does not matter.
That is her Choice and I have to live with that,
And even it is reaping me apart.
I can not do anything about this,But only Bear it,feel it,Embrace it.because life is not all sunshine and Rainbows.it is more than that.
I think i will find someone again even if i don’t that’s okay atleast I have loved enough.Honestly.

@anita

I don’t know why people don’t take relatioship serious,
How could one’s feelings for someone can change even in crisis,
Why do they instead of trying to make relationship work,they break it,ignore it,run away from it.
Yes i know some of the factors that would effect her thoughts and cause change in feelings,But if your love for someone is controled by situational and environmental factors,Then how could you call it love.
How can you love someone unconditionaly for 6 years, and in Just three months,all of a sudden that Man means nothing to you ,
All those memories,affection,passion just lost like it was never there.
All those promises fades away like smoke in the wind.
How Could the two people who dreams to live there whole life together ,one is now acts like a rude Stranger.
I really wish everday to have her back,’cuz its not like i can not live without her,
But i never did imagined my life without Her,
I wish..

@anita

Thank you for your help!
I am not sad because She do not feel the way i feel,
It is just that i have done everything possible so that we can be together always,never pressure her to do the things which she do not want do,and help her care for her in every possible way for the past 6 years, I understand i had hurt her,So did she, But i have not given up.
What hurts ne just that people make promises that they can not keep.
I am not made that way,I never lie and never get back to the promises i make.
Just because i am going through bad phase of my life does not mean i don’t want to make everthing right!
I love her so much and give her so much importance that i list my self worth,and niw she told me that I have never told you to give me and love so much importance,more than your life.
I really wish she will always be Happy and successful.
But after loving someone so much It ended like this,It is just a cruel way of life!
And i know pain will fade away,
But it is unbearable,I hope it will end soon.
And i am already moving out to new place may ve that helps me to Find the Lost Pieces of me Again.And embrace the life as it is not the way i wanted.

Thank you again
This is helpful by knowing there are so much people who care about others so much,who got hurt,are helping each other.
MAY be i’ll find the girl who accepts my Worst like she will accept my best,I really thought she was the one but who knows?.
Hopeing the pain will end soon.

@newlife123
I have asked her what is the reason that you don’t have those feelings for me,
She has just started her hectic schedule and the work,and her studies taking a lot toll on her,
Actually since after i came back home after i lost the job,that job was too important for us because we were together at work hours too and were very close and happy at that time,
But after loosing that job,I kindof lost my confidence and self steem and i didn’t handel that situation in constructive way,I don’t know why,But she hold on to me ,always trying to encourage me,suport me in every way possible
I guess it was too hard for her to see me wasting my time and u guess at that moment wheb i was not taking her and our life and relation seriously she was too in Pain.
But for last 3 months i started to recover,and I started to support her in every possible way i could,
BUT i even shared my problems and concern that she didn’t talk to me the way she used to,And i can understand you are in lot of pressure because your job,
But we always sort it out, But at christmas eve,She said she can not adjust with me now anymore,and also that she is adjusting from our college times,and she just cannot feel the way she used to feel for me,after that i told her i am not ready to give up,she said okay,but after that she became cold and harsh.
And last sunday she told me she is sufficating from this relation, I am supporting her in every point of her life like she did and i used to,and she does not have any feelings left for me, i said i love you,and she said i know ,but she didn’t.
I told her you take your time.
She said okay,and asked me i wait for her i said always.
And she wait for me too when i set my career.
But yesterday she told me i can’t give commitment that i will wait for youbor not.
And she said even after taking time,her feelings and decision will remain same then what, I said i’ll try again.
Then she told me that if she realised that this is a mistake ,breaking up with me,Then she calls back otherwise she will never call me back.
And till then she doesnot want to talk.
I told her if this is youb want and wish for then be it.
I think she just got confused with her future plans and career,that I am just not important to her anymore, I think the way i treated her when i was not in my right mind, I broke her heart .too and all those anger frustation , and not work and career stress leads to this.
And now its over,and the more i tried to make everything right, the worst my relationship get.
We were too happy together,It is hard to give up on her,but i can not do anything now,
She is not going to understand ever now ‘cuz she doesn’t want to and she do not want to try she does not want to be with the guy who gives love a lot more importance than anything,who is not practical.
I am just broke now ‘cuz at age if 24 not only i have to start career from zero ,But i lost the most importabt person and support of my life and i couldn’t do anything to have her back.
It is just getting too hard to bear!

Any one will help me?