Hello!

I’m new here so I just wanna share my thoughts about how I am at home.

Sometimes I dunno why I feel really short- tempered to my grandmother.Ever since my dad and mom left me to my grandmother because they were too busy with their work,I never really got that Parent attention in my life.After school,when I was a kid,I was always punished for being too dirty, for bullying, or even for just doing something wrong.Every hit behind me left a mark throughout my life.I always get scared, I easily get insecure, and most of the times, I would just hug my knees in a corner and cry.It was horrible.

After a few months have passed, finally graduated from elementary, there were a few new changes in which I had to really be independent in life.How could I?When all my life I was tortured and manipulated.I never got the change to really express how I really feel.Usually,after I got home from school,and watch T.v, my grampa quickly gets angry at me for just sitting there.Why?Why would she be angry?She never even told me to do anything at all.

The reason why I posted this is that I am starting to feel really anxious here at home.I easily get mad, always hiding what I’m doing coz she might de something bad at me.Those things.My point is,I need help.I need help in coping of this feeling inside me.