Apparently, due to the pandemic, I lost my job. He’s the only one who supports me. He’s not that bad. He also takes care of me and listens to me. Although he has temper, it’s only  him that I felt supported that I never felt from my parents. The last fight happened because I attacked him, I got jealous because I thought he’s playing with other girls. He’s a gamer.

Sometimes, I think I was a burden to him even though he keeps saying I’m not. I guess, I am the toxic one. I bring out the worst of him.

• This reply was modified 4 years, 5 months ago by Veronica.
• This reply was modified 4 years, 5 months ago by Veronica.

Hi!

Last sunday, my boyfriend and I had a huge fight. I attempted to leave him, get my stuffs and as soon as I was about to leave the room, he throws my stuff. I was crying so heavily because I felt disrespected. He then calmed down and approach me. He hug me while crying so heavily. As soon as I was able to calm down, he explained that he got full blank. We talked about it and that my attempt to leave triggered his abandonment issues. He cried so much, this was my first time seeing him crying. He was adopted and that his biological parents just left him on streets.

I told him that I get scared whenever he gets mad. But, aside from all of those moments where he gets mad, we are happy. We laugh a lot, he takes care of me and supports me. He also have good qualities.

But, what should I do about his anger issues? I really appreciate it for those who replies 🙏

I also thought of that. Thank you anita. I will find a way to make that happen. I’ll be back as soon as I am out of this house.

I went back to online dating yesterday. I was so stress, anxious and uneasy that it made me access back. I chat guys to make me feel good.

It was indeed make me feel good. To be admired and desired. It is like a sudden relief I feel. Then again, as I reflect my actions. I think the attention I crave the most was my father’s. His acceptance. Can you help me address this? How to rewire?

Funny thing is that, I said that stuff yesterday yet today I was incredibly sad. I made stupid mistake and I hear voices in my head how pathetic I am. And there it goes, going back to hating myself. *sigh* how can I stop this cycle?

If you don’t mind, can I access a link to that thread you mentioned?

Hi Anita,

Lately, I feel less sad. I just accepted the facts that I am lonely that I need love. I stop hating myself for the attention I crave.

It is what it is. I embrace myself – my flaws, my imperfections, my past. I embrace the child within me. I acknowledge my current situation and that I tried not to judge, despise ir be shame on it. I am sorry that you also had the same experience with me. I wonder, how do you overcome? What was the effect on that event? Was it the same with me?

My friends were okay. They are funny and bubbly. The thing is, being sad is like a crime. You can’t be sad, you can’t be depressed. I used to isolate myself a lot. I only have few friends as well. I am extremely introvert. Going out drains me so much. I feel more at peace to be alone, if things are smooth.

The only problem is when there is something that can trigger me, I can’t control myself.

Anyhow, I am so thankful especially to you, anita. You’ve been a great help. Thank you for trying to understand me, being with me during this times. Thank you for not forcing me to be okay. Thank you.. thank you..

To Anita,

Apparently not to i’ve known. I have friends on which I can talk to but I don’t like the way they respond to me. They give me false optimism. Whenever I share something, it would made me feel bad even more cause they have more serious problems that I have. I feel guilty for feeling this way.