Thank you very much to everyone that has replied. 🙂 I really appreciate your comments. I will have to read through them all again to try to extract as much from them as I can.
I need to think more on this, but I thought I’d try and post a quick reaction.

I think someone was saying about finding my passion? Well, music is my passion. Playing the piano brings me a lot of joy. When I was 15 I was sure I was going to become a rock star! 🙂 I went on to study music. But yet I’ve never made anything out of it. A lot of it is down to me, I never worked hard enough on it, and perhaps I relied on people to help me become successful when I should just rely on myself. Music is not something I can give up, and I still believe I could make a career in music (whether that’s true or not). Even so, I don’t think I can just go back to music now. I need to focus on finding some income and having some stability in my life. I can continue music at the same time.

So that is one reason I chose web design. I am a creative person and want a creative career. And web design being location independent, I felt I could have that career while being able to be anywhere in the world, and still fulfil my desires of travelling. In truth, if I had some money saved up right now, I would definitely just go to some country and try to live there for a while. But I have none. And I don’t know how to find a job in a foreign land especially when I am new to a field and have no experience.

When I was living in Asia, I felt almost opposite to how I do now. I felt strong, and confident, and was so full of optimism. I knew everything would work out fine. Here I am full of negativity and doubts. There I didn’t have much in the way of money or possessions, but I didn’t mind. I had more friends, but mostly local people. So were they real friends or just liked me because I was a foreigner??

Cory, you mentioned having a career to focus on. I would love this. If I had a career that I was good at and could put all my energies into I would find it very rewarding. Then I wouldn’t need to focus on socialising or my lack there of. 🙂 But if I was to do this, it would have to be a fulfilling career. Something that is worth something and gives something back to the world. I don’t really think web design is this is it? Web design is more like marketing, and advertising, which I respect, but it is not really giving something to the world. It is more like tricking people into doing something to gain more profits. Sorry if that offends anyone in marketing, it is a skilled job too.
I’ve thought about humanitarian and disaster relief work, but from what I gather it is very hard to get into unless you are highly skilled and experienced in the sought after roles.

Kline, I have seen that book and I almost bought it before! I will definitely have to go back and take another look and get a copy. Thanks! 🙂

I am an all or nothing person I think. I want to embrace the journey, I would accept the failures and the bad times. I want the highs and the lows. I want to feel alive! I just wish I knew which direction I should go so that I could focus in that direction.

I guess what I’m looking for is a career which is creative, rewarding, gives something good to the world, and lets me travel a lot. Any suggestions?? 🙂