Kkasxo, thanks so much. Yes, it’s hard to make sense of anything when I’m in the middle of so much grief. Everything reminds me of her, I’m thinking of her constantly, and it’s just…so painful. I’m going to have to move out of our apartment in a couple of weeks and I’m really, really dreading that, but also trying to remind myself: one day at a time, I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.

I’m still catching up on your story, but sounds like you’re going through a pretty tough, intense and scary process right now too, looking for a place with your ex/current partner. Thinking of you and sending you a little peace, if possible, and lots of strength.

Hi all,

Just joining this community. My partner and I split up just over two weeks ago. We were together for six years, and lived together. The decision was mutual but more mine than hers – I had been having doubts about our relationship for years, and in the end, I just couldn’t let go of them. I felt enormous relief for a week or so, but now the grief of having lost my partner of six years is really settling in, and I feel overwhelmed by pain so much of the time. Though perhaps our relationship had to end (I’m not sure), there was so much good in it – we really loved each other well, were very good to each other, and had a pretty happy life together in most ways. I know rationally that I won’t feel this pain forever, but it is really, really, really hard to believe it in the moment, when I feel so sad I can hardly breathe.

Anyway, just here for the healing. Looking forward to talking more with all of you.