hello, i just came across your post because i was searching for something i can relate to. i have just gone through something similar with my dog – the spleen thing, her abdomen filling with blood, etc. listen, it sounds like your vets didn’t explain things well, but what your dog was going through she wouldn’t have survived it, and the surgery would have been risky to the point she’d not have made it off the operating table. i understand the feelings of guilt– i am having them, too– but my vet spent a lot of time explaining it all to me. it has been the hardest time in my life, and i share a lot of your feelings. i’m extremely apathetic about life- my dog was like my kid, too. my only real family. if it helps at all, i get it. i really do. and i find so few don’t understand. tell me, how are you doing now?

also, thank you for writing this – people like me search for others who have this type of companionship with their dogs.

take care,
tj