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April 27, 2021 at 9:07 am #378828
TinyParticipantSo I decided to go to a mental health clinic tomorrow. I think my anxiety has reached levels that I cannot deal with on my own. I haven’t been able to stop crying all day.
April 27, 2021 at 6:16 am #378818TinyParticipantI would love to hear those tips! Thank you so much!
April 27, 2021 at 5:50 am #378816TinyParticipant@anonymous03 Thank you for your wonderful response! I completely agree that my anxiety always latches onto things I love. It’s especially hard regarding relationships because they’ve all caused me a lot of deep pain in the past. I want to make it a goal of mine to work out every day, even just going for a walk, because that had seemed to help for a bit yesterday.
Last night, I had gotten some work done and decided to treat myself to a nice bath. But my anxiety got so bad in there because I started overthinking and it snowballed a lot. I had a really bad panic attack and it was frightening because I was alone. I woke up today feeling extremely sad and also having a bit of anger towards my boyfriend. I feel like once I see him during the weekend, my anxiety could lessen up but it’s still days away and I’m losing a lot of sleep.
April 26, 2021 at 3:09 pm #378786TinyParticipant@Anita, I told one of my closest friends how a big part of how distressed I feel is because I believed I was past all of my trust issues, paranoia, and fear that I gained after my last relationship. I had worked on myself, gained a lot of confidence, and learned how to stand up for myself. And when I found someone who was everything I ever wanted, my anxiety was still there but it got smaller and smaller as the months went on. It hurts having it pop back up now. But I know trauma is a cycle and now something that goes away quickly.
April 26, 2021 at 2:54 pm #378784TinyParticipant@Anita, I just saw it, I’m sorry I missed it! Your response made me tear up because it encompassed exactly how I felt. I know that even if he explained what happened, I would find something else to worry about. And unless there is concrete proof of him doing something wrong, I cannot feed my anxiety. Plus, I know his heart and that he wouldn’t ever hurt me (or anyone else) in that way. I ended up going on a nice walk earlier (with my cat on a cat stroller haha) and it gave me some peace of mind. I do not have time often to do that but I want to make it a goal to try hard to take care of my body and hopefully, it will lessen that voice little by little.
April 26, 2021 at 2:40 pm #378781TinyParticipantIt doesn’t seem like something he’d do, honestly. After my response to you, he called me because he was on his way home from work. Our talk was really good and enjoyable! Towards the end, he was talking about his pet so I had made a casual comment about how he mentioned she was hyper and he was like “hmm she was” and then I said something else to which he replied to. I don’t know if it’s my paranoia, but I noticed that the 2 minute talk about the text (I didn’t ask him about what he meant or how I was confused about it) was weird…like he was just going hmmm or yeah which he does sometimes usually when he’s about to hang up, which after he said he was at the place to get his hair cut. I can’t tell if he was being suspicious or it’s another anxiety manifestation?
April 26, 2021 at 1:36 pm #378778TinyParticipant@Anita, thank you for your response! I, too, don’t understand the text. It was word for word what I got. That’s why it has caused me a lot of stress. I have been annoyed with him more lately, irritation is a symptom of my anxiety. I try not to ever show it because I believe in never taking out my anxiety or depression on others. I DO trust him…its just that tiny “what if?” voice in my head that is petrifying me.
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