Hi Rebecca,
I’m in a similar position as Amanda, and you it sounds like. It’s great to know that there are others out there that struggle with the same dilemmas (im in Los Angeles). I would love to connect directly (this is my first day on tinybuddha and am unsure if this site offers direct messaging). I have some ideas/advice I would love to chat with you about. You can email me at ninasayers@gmail.com if you wanna take a leap of faith! 🙂