That makes sense anita. I can’t recall the intensity of the emotion I felt back then but, I do remember feeling bad about these comparisons. And I guess over time I’ve learned to carry this comparison tool around with me, to the point where I can’t stop.

I think the valid message in my case is, I am trying to find my self worth in external things. Looking at all these people who have “accomplished” more than me hurts because these are not things I can add to my list to make me feel “worthy”. I am unworthy for not accomplishing as much.