I just think or thought that there is more to relationship than just comfort… I would love share visions, plans and future but it was always only my ideas and my plans never got anything out of him even when I was complaining that he never tells me anything about what he feels what he wants to do , he only says he doesnt know and for me as a person with many plans is a bit sad and I do not want make all the decisions myself I would love input from him talk about our plans not just decide on one and thats the way it will be and he just goes with the flow easily .. it is too much pressure on ones shoulders.. I would say and many said too that I am very smart person with many interests but he is not that smart but he is more practical can fix and make many things too different ways of being smart if I put it this way..he could not deal with college or smart conversations if you know what I mean… and I know a lot of stuff I could not talk about in two way direction with him..

The comfortness and safety of his company is something that I am afraid wont find that easly and that is why I am doubting my decision to break up even though we mutually agreed but again not much said from his side as usual ..

We lived our crazy surfer kinda style life where you live day by day do not think much about the future just checking the right conditions to go about our sport and get enough money just to get by but have enough time to do our sport when conditions are right but as we are getting older I do not know if that has a future how long can people live day by day? with no plans?