My sources of anger usually stem from the usual life struggles most deal with I suppose. Job frustrations, family and health issues, things that feel out of my control and that i don’t have a lot of power in. When I was younger these issues would actually have the opposite affect on me and I would feel I could regain some control by restricting my food intake and always having my body slim to my ideal. Now it seems I just want to have something that feels good and brings me a moment of happiness when not much else does. I think I am aware that this is stemming from my need to try the best that I can to “fix” some of the situations in my life and filling a void that is missing but I can’t summon the energy or motivation I need. I can feel my body starting feel the effects of my unhealthy lifestyle. My health may have set me on a different path at one point in my life but now I worry about until the chance to “treat” myself presents itself again. I must admit writing all this feels a tab bit self indulgent and whiny but does almost feeling like weights are lifting. Thank you for your reply.