Yeah, I ‘ll leave you all be to discuss your relationship problems, because that is seemingly the only topic of conversation allowed on here.

I just don’t see the point of meditation outside of a monastery or temple. Sooner or later, some tw*t is going to ruin your day and undo all the work you’ve put in. Society at large tends to ridicule meditation and yoga, which further proves my point. This is why I believe some ‘gurus’ are making a lot of money fooling the public into buying their books in the belief that they too can meditate and find peace. Which is crap, because to do it properly in the ‘real world’ you should live alone with no distractions such as closed-minded, materialistic family members. I have tried to meditate but couldn’t really quiet my mind long enough for fear of being disturbed/discovered by someone and ridiculed by them.

Thanks for your input.

I still stand by my assertion that my spiritual phase is over. Many different gods/higher beings have made themselves known through synchronicity (Diana/Artemis really knocked herself out trying to get my attention of late). However, when things started to get occultic it was time for me to pack it all in. I won’t even pray now, because I don’t know to whom I am praying. One might use words like ‘Father’ in one’s prayers, but which one? Yahweh? Odin? Zeus? Even Jesus is suspect. He seems to have so many different personas or ‘avatars’. You pray to the Lord of Life. Which one? Jesus? Osiris? Nah, I’ll go my own way, lead my own life and do my own thing. I’ll try to find a balance and act out of love and respect like most people do. As for the gods, they’ve got their world and I’ve got mine. I accept they exist but I’m not going to fawn over them.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

Thank you all for your kindness.

Selene, you have nothing to apologise for. I shouldn’t have spoken to you in the way I did.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

Well, I don’t know quite what it has got to do with you, but I am on these forums to find help before I am driven to end my life. Sadly, it seems that Tiny Buddha is more about dispensing relationship advice than anything else. Help is not to be found anywhere. I can’t even begin to speak to family about it. Tried it once, and it scared the shit out of them. (Fear manifests in two ways: anger or nervous illness.) So I went to my parish priest on three separate occasions. He didn’t know what to do, he was clueless. On the third visit he put me in touch with an exorcist on the phone. I thought that I might actually get somewhere, but the guy told me to see my G.P. So I went to my G.P and ended up on anti-depressants. But the energies still enter my head at night. They still cause static with electrical appliances even though they are turned off at the wall. There are invisible beings still with me, and I haven’t discovered their motives to this day, nearly FIVE years after it all started. Sir Godford Almighty stuck his oar in once with a dream about the Torah, but I have heard zilch from Him ever since. (He has a VERY dry sense of humour, it seems.) Somewhere in Godland, some bright spark thought it would be fun to mess with my head by giving me experiences of Pagan Roman gods (I am a Roman Catholic. Great joke, that one. Funny.) Oh yes, I had them all: Bacchus, Neptune, Portunus. Why do this? My religion is monotheistic. Or do the gods like to mess with human beings from time to time? It would certainly explain why Akhenaten up-ended a whole religious system overnight.

So, as you will appreciate, I get a bit frustrated when all I see on here is posts about people splitting up with their partners, and on that score, Tiny Buddha strikes me as one of the least spiritual forums available on the internet.

That a good enough answer for you?

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

Judaism, Islam and Christianity are teaching lies. I say that because all my experiences involved the gods of ancient Rome, with a brief period involving Odin of Norse mythology. And please understand this, I did not invite this thing to happen. I have never done yoga or been interested in Hinduism. It happened on its own. I was a ‘mainstream’ Christian, but all that is over now and there is no going back. I am still active as a church organist within the Catholic Church, but all that is going to have to come to an end in the New Year. Trouble is, I don’t know where I go from here, because the beer-swilling antics of some neo-Pagans puts me off.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

Thanks for your input,

I have arrived at the point in my life where I am happy to place the Biblical Jesus under the category of myth and fiction. I didn’t feel able to do this before, but I am now, because I have learned that there is no ‘saviour’. Instead, one must save oneself. I saw this through the prism of depression. I realised that this world is arranged to favour the strong, and that the weak will always fall by the wayside because that is the nature of things. Viewed in that context, Jesus’s Beatitudes can be seen for what they are: pure nonsense ungrounded in reality. So it is up to oneself to stay strong and learn to cope. No one is going to do that for you, not least a counterfeit saviour. This has been a hard lesson to learn, and I am still angry with myself for being so naive.

In the New Year I shall move on from Christianity. My parents won’t like it but I cannot go on living a lie.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser