Thanks for the kind words I truly appreciate you taking out your time and going over these details. What bothers me all the time is that if it was bothering him all this time why didn’t he ever say anything, why did he do nice things after an argument and made it look like everything was normal. I know I was wrong but his actions lead me to make such harsh comments. People say partnerships are give and take relationships, so as a girl who put so much in the relationship was I all that wrong to expect some reciprocation back? We had mostly good times, I was there through his thin & thick, did things for his parents that I didn’t even do for my own family because YES I loved him and still do. So all I want to know is that why did he not leave before, why he never sat once and said “look I know you’re upset but you can’t say those things or I’m going to end this relationship”. Sorry for my poor analogy but it’s like giving a kid a candy bar after he throws tantrum instead of telling him not to repeat that behavior. No one is perfect so when things get hard do people have to leave? What about compromises & all the promises you make when you were emotional high? He knew I was going through rough time and was very exhausted from everything so it is just sad to see that he opted for the easy way out. He got back on Facebook last night & even though he changed his profile pic & cover pic on Jan 7th he still has previous pics and my posts why? His Fb was all about my posts literally. It was more than a relationship, it’s marriage for me and yes things got little rough over basic expectations so yes you are absolutely right “never live with a dream” but now I understand that. All I wanted for him was to come and sit in person. Our common friends both guys & girls think that arguments are a part of relationship not end of it. I just wish he once just once made it look like he wasn’t ok and I would’ve made these changes long long time ago. Now is there any way you think seeing those positive changes that I promised, it might spark old love in his heart and he might be willing to give it a shot considering I’m the one he ever loved, introduced to family & wanted to marry :'(
I learn the hard way & this by far was the hardest lesson of my life. Thanks for the kind reply again, I truly appreciate it!