Natalie, you are so brave for sharing your story.
I felt extremely connected to you throughout the entire post. I couldn’t even make it through the first paragraph without crying. I felt like I had a breakthrough because I never really thought about having ‘triggers’ about the past. But it’s so true! It’s such a thing. I saw so much of myself in you and am dealing with the same exact issues.
My current relationship is the same way. There are so many things that set me off and cause me to become aggressive. I have no idea how to really deal with it. I constantly feel like I’m dissatisfied and making him feel bad.