I have spent a lot of time over the last few days thinking about what I ‘want’, and what is ‘right’.

My wife and I were intimate together for the first time last night, while it was fine, good even, I felt it hard to feel ‘connected’ to her – and I feel guilty about that as she now seems happier.

I am wondering whether I am better by myself, I am starting to ‘want’ to spend time looking at myself, I am feeling an incredible draw to being solitary, my feelings for my ex-workmate are still there, but do not seem as important now, not now that I am faced with this longing to be by myself and to try to ‘perfect’ myself.

I am thinking of speaking with my wife within the month and talking to her about going our separate ways.

Excellent post, thank you.

Believe me when I say that I don’t take these things lightly, I look into every aspect of my thoughts and as to why I feel them (after years of ON/Off meditation) I never take thoughts on ‘face value’.

I’m using this forum more for other opinions/voice my opinions/thoughts – rather than advice (not that it isn’t appreciated, rather, you’re a voice at the end if a keyboard…) ((No offence))

I don’t think either of us would throw a baby into the mix, we aren’t at that point and it wouldn’t be fair on the child.