Thank you Jerry for sharing. I have always felt this rage too. I didn’t recognize it as grief and fear
but that is exactly what it is, a long with a disease to please. I can see it now. I can understand.
I am willing to make an effort to change. I have the book The Power of Now, I read this far and
kind of got stuck. Stuck in my own pain. I never believed I mattered. It is time to claim it.
I want to do it because I want to do it. Not because someone is manipulating me into doing it.
I am tired of being manipulated and controlled. I am always reacting because this is happening.
And I have been thinking lately, I don’t have to give up my power to choose my own actions and
reactions. I don’t have to give anyone control over me. This is exactly where I am. I prayed
before I coincidently joined this forum today. Namaste.

Brenda