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  • March 25, 2019 at 1:57 pm #286303
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    That’s true. Thank you for your kind words. They’ve been helpful. I think I’m just overwhelmed with everything and missing what is “known.” It’s the first time I’ve been home sick in 3 years so that’s a new one.

    March 25, 2019 at 12:35 pm #286291
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    I think I’m just not happy with the neighborhood it is in. Another reason for the move was to get out of the “ghetto” as I called it where my apartment was, but this neighborhood, although not apartments but houses, seems rough, too. I have already planned to get a security system and cameras, but I have always had this paranoia about people.

    I just want to feel safe for me and my two inside cats, and it seems like this neighborhood wasn’t as researched enough as it should have been. I mean, I’m only about 1 mile away from the priciest neighborhoods in the entire city, very clean and well-maintained, but being on the outskirts of a nice neighborhood still brings its disadvantages.

    March 25, 2019 at 12:07 pm #286283
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    Also I’ve been feeling VERY homesick for my old home in another state recently. I left there three years ago, thinking I would never return, but now all I’m doing is wondering if I could find a job there so I could move back. I haven’t made any friends where I’m at here. I had a girlfriend for two years, but that has been over since last March, and I am so lonely. I usually don’t admit that to myself because I’ve always been a very private person, but I’ve never felt so alone these past few months. I do musical theater, but the theaters I’ve found here aren’t the same level as the one I used to be in, and that’s disappointing too. Maybe I’m just feeling sorry for myself.

    March 25, 2019 at 11:49 am #286279
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    There have been underlying concerns since December, when I decided to move out of my apartment. The landlord said she was going to evict me if I didn’t stop taking care of a bunch of stray cats that lived out back (the cats I started taking care of because the previous landlord took care of them, and then she just up and left, so I had been taking care of them for three years and then one day in December got a note on my door saying that I would be evicted if I didn’t stop feeding them.) I tried to talk to her but she just said “Just ignore them and they’ll go away” which obviously isn’t the case, so for a few weeks in December I was crushed as I tried to figure out a place to take these cats because I wasn’t going to watch them suffer through the winter. I finally found a woman to take them, so I’ve been trying to trap these cats since December, and I’m down to one cat left. Anyway, that has been a very stressful situation, but I am wondering if I have homebuyer’s remorse with this house and it is taking its toll on me. There’s no rush to get into the house because my lease isn’t up until the end of April, so I have time to get everything situated, but I keep feeling like I might have made a mistake or something and that has made itself snowball into panic and anxiety.

    March 25, 2019 at 6:23 am #286179
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    Thanks for your responses Anita.

    I talked to the neighbor. He said he was fine with me, just not the plumber. I told him I had fired the plumber.

    So you’d think everything would be fine and dandy, but for some reason, I’m still have residual effects. I’ve been really stressed with everything recently and I still can’t seem to shake things. I’ve had no appetite for a week and I’ve lost all interest in everything.

    Also, I’ve been slowly weaning myself off Pristiq. I started last summer at 100 mg and slowly SLOOOOWLY I’m down to 25 mg a day and I thought I was going to be off them for good until recently. I guess I was fooling myself thinking that the pills weren’t doing me any good. However, I desperately want off the Pristiq because I just don’t trust them. They’re very hard to get off of and the withdrawal symptoms are legendary, which is why I figured I would get off the pills and then figure out if I needed any other pills. So now I have a doctor’s appointment Thursday to talk to my psychiatrist about maybe getting something else to try while I continue weaning off the Pristiq. Not sure what to get on, but something that can help me deal with my anxiety.

    March 21, 2019 at 12:47 pm #285693
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    I did that this morning. I stopped over there and knocked on his door. He was on the phone and told me he would call me. I said “I just wanted to apologize again” and he said “We’re cool” and I left, but again, why do I not feel like it’s over?

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