Hi Anita!  I’d like to thank you for pointing out the run on sentences. The thing that struck out was I was experiencing anxiety as I was typing. I hadn’t even noticed that at all. I’m appreciative of people such as yourself that point out that type of stuff because it’s important to me. As I’d rereading my response to you I’m in agreement with you it was really unorganized and difficult to understand. I want to say that I’ve been working with the therapist I’ve got currently for over 16 years, she’s got a PhD in Psychology and she’s also a Traumatologist. She’s imperative in my life as I don’t ignore my mental health and I face my struggles head on. I’m definitely struggling with my physical symptoms as far as my panic disorder is concerned I will attest to that as well as the writing reflects that as well. I also wanted to just let you know I’ve got a meeting scheduled tomorrow morning with my son’s high school to coordinate and hopefully find a solution within school to help him get up to speed with his courses which if not I’m going to have to think of an alternative option to solve the problem. I will be honest and thank you again for your observations regarding the writing because it really helped me to see clearly how my  own emotions can just become so overwhelming at times that I have to really pay more attention towards them and regularly try mindfulness and other skills in my toolbox of skills that I implement in regards to my regulating my emotions. I also have to thank you for your support, and feedback. I found it incredibly helpful and I didn’t feel so alone.  Hopefully we can chat on the future. For now I’ve got to go back and finish my schoolwork before I head to bed. I wish you a peaceful night and sleep well. Goodnight. Thanks again.
lori.

Hi Anita! Thanks for reaching out that means a lot. So you wanted clarification on a few things  because I have Cptsd and a panic disorder so when I left I did everything the same including his sleep schedule day care everything. I got a fucking therapist (cursing towards his ass, I apologize for the rude response), I made double sure to not just provide and protect but prevent the worst possible scenario when I was in the situation I’m thinking I don’t want this to screw him up so when they’re young like that they aren’t very serious it’s a much more pleasant experience for the kids because they interact through play therapy. It worked until she suggested medication to which I said ya just no bye and took my time. Unfortunately some trauma happened to my child when he was only 6, I’m speaking as a survivor as a trauma patient but this killed my soul so immediately after the police eventually the mf got off because his brother erased the video of the actual incident and then he was represented as a home owner while I’m lying because I’m jealous and crazy ya know the corruption in the mf justice system but I’m grateful that the detective assigned was a mom because I almost went to prison and she saved my son and I. So then I found a real social worker not a psychologist I mean he’s only seen one shrink his entire life, no medicine ever, he’s a very strong independent young man who is quietly slowly shutting down because he’s suffering from severe mental health issues and I don’t feel comfortable disclosing because it’s awkward but to clarify the difference between a social worker and a psychologist is starkly different. Social workers are and have a Tom of more opportunities or effects that work rather than just talk therapy and I always interview every person who is a dr that’s meeting with my child. Hey I know I’m mentally handicapped but I’m not unstable ok I take medication every day I go to my therapy I apply my mindfulness skills so I can show him the best version of my motherhood and I want him to understand how you have to just show up or communicate ya know. So hopefully I answered your questions and I would really like to take the time and thank you so much and the saddest part is I’m completely shut down that I can’t even look or read the compliments or the nice words and points you were making I had rushed through but that’s ok I’ll try again. Thank you. Your a bleed woman who made a difference in my life today and i thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️. Ty. I’m crying now so I just got to get through tonight then tomorrow I’m mainly focused on his life because unless he’s exactly where he wanna be and he’s feeling comfortable until this happens I’ll not stop being an advocate or voice for my son. The saddest fact is that the districts in f NYC AND NY period treat you like y’all share custody no I don’t think so. I have a plan I’ll be meeting again at the school this week I’ve already started the list and he is the one who came to me a year ago asking if I knew anything about social anxiety um ya hi I’m the definition so when he kegit stated mom I think I need more help. To me I’m not a fan of a pill making things disappear it doesn’t work like that so I’ll be interviewing that dr and if anything is suggested for my son we’ll make a very informative decision because I’m still concerned regarding his brain development and health. All in all you made me smile thank you I have a plan pretty scheduled out to and unfortunately due to my pathetic past I know about medication all too well. Ok you stay blessed and healthy and have a wonderful weekend. !🌹