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  • in reply to: Felling guilty for moving on? #163388
    Mina
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    Update :

    5. Is it possible to move on while I still have some lingering affections for that certain person (and there is a chance that the lingering affections will always be there?)

    Considering the nature of the break up and relationship, it was a very mature and understanding relationship, even now we still have a very good relationship even though we are no longer in contact with each other, but we are still keeping the communication line open and will be there for each other if we have some kind of problems. We broke up due to the circumstances that did not allowed the relationship to go any further, for a while – there are times when I wished that we broke up for some other “bad” reasons like because we are not compatible or because we no longer love each other instead of blaming the “circumstances and timing” like what I am doing right now.

    -Mina

    • This reply was modified 7 years, 4 months ago by Mina.
    in reply to: Felling guilty for moving on? #163332
    Mina
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    Dear Anita, Miranda and Naturelover :

    Thank you very much for all the assuring advices and feedback. I guess, I needed to hear some of those words – that it is ok to move on. I guess I have this irrational fear that If I moved on for good, the memories will disappear too. I admit that I am not very good at saying goodbye when it feels very final.

    I tend to hold on to memories for closure. My ex partner reassured me (a while back) that what we had was real, we spent a lot of good moments together, and a lot of personal stories that we shared will remained there. It was a good relationship, we tried our hardest but sometimes things aren’t meant to be, he wants me to stop beating up myself so much for everything. I got his “blessing” to move on in a way

    After that, I guess I did moved on. I feel like I am one page away from closing this chapter now – and somehow it feels heavy knowing that all things have to end. There is still this tiny part of me that does not want to flip this one last page because I do not want it to end for some reasons. Even though that chapter of my life was very hard and painful, it just feels very scary to start a new beginning knowing that I have no idea what is stored in the future.

    1. How can I stop being scared of this unknown future?

    2. Like I had mentioned above, I have this irrational fear that my memories with him will disappear and somehow will make our past relationship as if it is never happened if I moved on, what do you guys think?

    3. Is it ok / acceptable to think about this past relationship as something that meant a lot to me, and that even thought it does not exist in my life right now, it will ALWAYS exist inside the memories that we shared together?

    4. I recently wrote a journal to write down things (little things) about my past relationship because I am afraid that I will forget, by forgetting those things one by one – am I erasing the memories itself? I am very scared that I am actually erasing the whole relationship itself now because of it.

    I would love to hear advices and feedback if you guys dont mind x have a great day!

    -Mina

    in reply to: Ways to recover from a depression? #162614
    Mina
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    Dear Anita,

    Thanks. I am glad that I am doing the right thing for myself now. Thank you.

    -Mina

    in reply to: "Don't want a relationship- breakup" #162314
    Mina
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    Pals,

    I recently went through something similar to your situation. My boyfriend was only 19, had nothing figured out in his life, he wanted to move college because of the stress he is under in our university and also due to his fear of his mandatory military service. He told me he isn’t available for any kind of relationship with anyone based on his situation right now. It was fair, to me. I understand how hard it has been for him. Even though I understand, it is still a constant struggle for me.

    I sympathise with your situation. My advice for you is to let go. Really. If you truly loved him, you would let go. He is clearly unhappy and wants out, there is no point of holding him back. If letting him go will make him happy, then you should definitely let go. I understand how hard it must have been for you, but it will be fine. If he is the one for you, it will work out. If he’s not, you will find someone that will truly treasure you.

    You must be shocked because he just suddenly said the break up word out of the blue, that is why it is harder for you. I at some point had already predicted it so it wasn’t as hard but for you – I cannot imagine the amount of pain, shock and anger that you currently experience.

    I am wishing you the best, please reply anytime x

    -Mina

    in reply to: Is it a hint? #161844
    Mina
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    Hello Connie,

    I absolutely agree with your statement. It is frustrating when we need answers but the person is very unresponsive. Please stay strong, and have faith that it will all work out in the end.

    Best wishes, always.

    -Mina

    in reply to: Is it a hint? #161770
    Mina
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    Hello Connie,

    I have been noticing your situation after you replied on my threads yesterday, I know how difficult this break up has been for you. I know because I am going through the exact same feelings as you. I know how exhausting it is, how emotionally consummating it is. You still have a lot of attachment and hopes regarding this man. I understand that.

    You mentioned that your partner has lost hope in this relationship due to you mentioning break ups in a lot of occasions. But he also mentioned how he still cares about you and went as far as he wouldn’t date anyone ever again / will live a single life. That is a very strong statement but it sounds very inconsistent to me. It is inconsistent because he lost hope but at the same time he still cares about you. It does not make any sense to me. If he really did lost his hope, he would not care about you at all to even send this email.

    I would strongly advice you to talk to him, by phone if possible. Ask him clearly what he meant. Ask him if there is a chance for this relationship to be resurrected at all, if there he says there isn’t (whatever his reasons is) – stop all contact.

    I am sending you all my love. I would love to hear from you with any updates anytime.

    P.s : I know that this isn’t related to any of your questions on this thread, but as someone who is also going through a tough break up, I would advice you to try to surround yourself with your family and friends. Try to talk to a lot of people, usually they will make you see the break up in a lot of different (interesting) perspectives that makes you feel hopeful about the future. This break up might feel like the end of the world for you, but remember – life goes on. It will always goes on. If this man isn’t the one for you, believe me, your future man is somewhere out there. There is STILL a life after a tough break up. You are going to be happy again, even if sometimes you still feel miserable due to all of this but there will always be a moment that you are going to be happy. You realise that life without him, even though it is not exactly a happy place for a while, it will be. I hope you find answers or closure soon. I really hope you do.

    -Mina x

     

     

    in reply to: Breaking my best friend`s heart? #161684
    Mina
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    Hi Anita,

    Thank you for the lovely feedback. I really appreciate it.

    You wrote : “During this turmoil, you do need stability in other areas of your life, one of which is that a friend should stay a friend. It is not time to cause further shaking in your life by redefining other relationships.”

    I absolutely agree with this statement of yours x

    -Mina

    in reply to: Breaking my best friend`s heart? #161682
    Mina
    Participant

    Hi Pearce,

    Thank you very much for another feedback. I appreciate it very very much. Thank you, once again. I will keep what you have said in mind.

    -Mina

    in reply to: Breaking my best friend`s heart? #161680
    Mina
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    Hi Inky,

    You made such a perfect example. I have been trying to express this concern to my mutual friends, by using the exact same expression (if your DH dies and your guy friends are approaching you already before you can properly grief) – this describes what I am feeling perfectly.

    I am intrigued to hear how your DD got together with this particular boyfriend of hers. Are they still together? and is your DD in love with this guy sincerely, considering she got together with him in the middle of her break up?

    Thank you very much, Inky. I would love to hear from you, again.

    -Mina

    in reply to: A closure after a tough break up #161676
    Mina
    Participant

    Hello Connie,

    I think you are absolutely right. I needed his blessings to move on. I needed to hear that what we had was real, and in a way it is like him saying “it is ok to let go now” because even if i let go, it will not change anything about the relationship that we had. Thank you for writing me back, Connie.

    -Mina

    in reply to: Breaking my best friend`s heart? #161587
    Mina
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    Dear Anita,

    I completely understand where you are coming from, Anita. I really do, because I know that I cannot control his feelings for me. Maybe he has been silently loving me from a long time ago, like you said and finally only had the courage (or opportunity) to expressed it now.

    I won’t react this harshly if he had expressed this before this whole break up thing had happened. I would just politely reject him and move on. My friend must have known how bad my mental situation right now since I still have a big and very fresh wound from my break up. I expressed this almost every day since it is a constant struggle for me.

    He knows all of this – so why? you said that he might be a good person with a bad timing, but he chooses his own timing. He could just support me as a good friend until I get over this break up completely but why did he had choose to expressed it now? It was his own choice. He is just being selfish, he does not care about me or my feelings – he just wants to his feelings to be heard by me. If he does not realise how expressing his “love” has became a “burden” to me – he clearly does not love me. He has been acting very childish, insulting my ex partner and making rude remarks about him. If I can be completely honest, my ex had never once insulted my best friend and has always respected my friendship with this guy.

    I do think that my best friend is a good person, but as a partner – he lacks a lot of things. Again I have to mention that my mental state isn’t very good after the break up, so it is natural for me to compare him with my ex partner. Even if he really is a better partner for me, I still won’t accept his feelings because he is being very insensitive to my situation. That is the main problem to me. His feelings isn’t a big deal for me, I had rejected guys before, it is his lack of thoughts and foolishness that really bothers me.

    I would love to hear your feedback or opinion or advice, as usual. Thank you very much.

    -Mina

     

     

    in reply to: Breaking my best friend`s heart? #161571
    Mina
    Participant

    Dear Pearce,

    Thank you for your reply, I really appreciate it. I had never think about it before you mentioned it here, that he is probably doing this on purpose and wait for the opportunity (the break up obviously) t0 finally express his feelings by taking advantage of my emotional state. If that is what he is doing right now, I really do feel sorry for him. He clearly miscalculated a lot of things here. Especially regarding my relationship with my ex boyfriend.

    I (fortunately) still have a very good relationship and is receiving support from my ex boyfriend throughout this tough break up. I can afford to lose a friend that does not appreciate or support me during this break up. I am not begging for any kind of support from him. My friend is clearly not in his right mind to assume that he can somehow be with me, a month after my break up. I find it very odd that he even thinks about it. I think he is taking relationships and love in general as toys. In my opinion, no one is able to actually sincerely love someone when the person that they love is still struggling with a break up. Why? Because if you really love someone, you will wait.

    Tell me your opinion, Pearce. Thank you very much x

    -Mina

    in reply to: Breaking my best friend`s heart? #161536
    Mina
    Participant

    Hi Inky,

    Thank you very much for replying. You describes everything perfectly regarding my situation. Him liking me … is definitely a burden for me. I rejected him softly yesterday – I can tell that he is hurt from the rejection but I do not feel sorry for him whatsoever because I am not in any situation to feel sorry for anyone.

    But I do feel a bit awful for breaking his heart, because I know how awful it feels to have mine broken by my ex but unfortunately I cannot help it. I need to survive first. Thanks again for the amazing advices, I think you are absolutely right about everything.

    By the way, you wrote : “Him making his confession NOW actually minimizes your whole past relationship.” will you care to explain more about this? Thanks so much.

    -Mina

    in reply to: A closure after a tough break up #161352
    Mina
    Participant

    Dear Anita,

    I mentioned above that I cried. I did not understand why, but I cannot control the tears. I assumed that it was too overwhelming for me hearing from him. What is your opinion? I would like to know if you dont mind.

    Me reaching out to him, wishing him a happy birthday was a cry out for help from my side. For others, it is a simple “happy birthday” wishes but for me, deep down inside, it is a cry for help and support from him. I am struggling, I feel like dying please help me kind of cry. I didnt say any of those words or even near those words but without me saying it, he understood and helped me in his own ways. He pushes me forward by recognising my support for him during the relationship, I know that he feels a lot of guilt regarding the break up. I was holding on to that one text message and I got a response that I needed to hear ever since the break up. What is your opinion about this?

    Thank you so much, as usual, Anita. Take care.

    -Mina

     

    in reply to: A closure after a tough break up #161340
    Mina
    Participant

    Dear Anita,

    I guess you probably think that it is a bad idea but that contact was not meant to be something like that. I reached out to him because I loved him, I still care and I want give out an exception on his special day as a friend. I wrote that birthday message with no expectations. All I want is a “Thank you, wish you well too.” kind of reply.

    But in a way that made me stunned is that I never asked for any closure or anything from him, he gave those words to me because he feels my desperation or my sincerity. He UNDERSTANDS. That is what touched me the most. I needed that, when I didnt even know that I needed that before he said it.

    -Mina

     

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