Thank you for your reply. I have always put others and work before myself. I don’t find “loving” myself part of my daily life. I guess when I am able to accept that, it’s okay to put myself first then I will be able to read and change. I am happy for you , that you had that AHA moment and was able to take the true step forward. After reading all the replies, I have realized that I am not ready for that . I can’t see myself doing any of the suggested.