Dear Anita,

YOu are such a very attentive person and have a very good memory. Yes, after 2 years, I have recovered from my drama. I have discovered I am too old to be prenant, that guy still in date with me, and we keep our relationship in secret in hop that a few year later my parents will accept our relationship.

I feel so ahsamed at this age(40) I still struggle with so many problem to find things that people at my age already have; but that’s the reason I find to you and Tiny Buddha.

After the storm from love drama, I now face with my long lasting problem with jobs, as I am not be pleased by my boss though I am a very effective and clever staff. In other words, she is not happy with my talents and put me in boring research position while my major in import-export. SO I have a lot of free time for many years.

To tell the truth, age is a problem that hinders me from living to what I like, to get our of the safe zone; and my parents are too old for me to go away from them to follow my dream; SO I choose to accept and try to adjust myself to fit the environment. I try many ways relating to religion: practice repent, recite mantra, become vegetarian, do charity… for the recent year, I have practice meditation; whith I learn on you tube. Right now i do have a lot of freetime and would like to come here again to see if there is any group or person to join in sharing about meditation or personal development method, as I think this is a very healthy and helpful place, espcially there is you, thank you :))

Sorry while writing this i feel my issue so small to other major problem out there like Israel- Palestine war. I think while writing out these words I have some answer to my problem

Have a good day!

Blue

Dear Felix,

I appreciate your time and eattention in the long detailed comment s for me. I feel the kindness in it. Thank you.

Yes, your opinion brightens me some point in my thinking. I am a woman, I am somewhat afraid of marrying a poor guy. But he care for me. During my last 38 years, no guys care for me. I google some cases which woman marrying poor husband, most sais it is not advisable. But in my case as a 38 years old, I am running out of time on fertility, and this single guy is my only choice at this time, I am considering. I will take your comments into consideration while waiting for my parents to change their mind or while waiting for things to work it our. Thanks again.

Dear Anita,

He was so poor that  my parents prevent me from marrying him. They worry I will lead the rest of my life in poverty. So they think I am better off staying single.

Blue

Dear Anita,

After a while of balancing a little bit, I think partly it is my not correct thinking more than social norm; I cannot forgive myself after the drama. At this age of 38, I think I should practice more acceptance and gratitude. After the event, I learnt a lot from that. After all, I think it is not completely a  bad luck. I think I will recover ok. Thanks a lot to Tinybuddha and you Anita.

Dear Maria,

Thanks a lot for your useful material. I will work on it. I hope with time I will have enough capability to transform the bad emotions into positive ones. Thanks again for your kindness. You are really helpful