Good morning Justas,
While I cannot relate directly with your situation, I have too been practicing various forms of Buddhism and slowly easing into meditation. Meditation/yoga helps me build resilience (both emotionally and physically) and it’s important to note that it’s difficult to find an overnight miracle. Another HUGE part of me overcoming a rather traumatic experience last year was starting a gratitude journal. While my first few entries started off just noting that at least the weather still feels okay, I’ve now progressed to appreciate many little things. Fast forward three months, I feel way more at peace and motivated to continue my next day.
I hope this brings something to you!