Anger at what? My unconditional love? My undying devotion? My blind trust? My support for him? If he was angry, he was angry at himself. That he didn’t love me but pretended he did. Because I never gave him a reason to be angry at me. Even after he cheated, I gave him a second chance. You think it was easy? Everyday something reminded me of something he did in the 5 months he was cheating on me. But even then I had trusted him and didn’t see the signs. I am strong. You know why? Because I went through hell for him and because of him. But I survived and didn’t let my heart become cold. I gave up now because I realized that he didn’t deserve more than one chance and I gave him plenty. He showed me his true colors. If he did all this because he was angry, well I can guarantee you that it wasn’t at me and his anger was for himself because he knew he didn’t deserve a good and loyal woman like me.

Dear Lea:

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and understand my problem. I am glad someone knows how I feel. Your words ring so accurate. I should stop checking up on him. It’s not going to do me any good. The thing is that I have never hurt anyone in my life intentionally. Never even taken revenge. I try to be a good person. I just wonder why good people go through so much pain while people with bad intentions, like him, get to be happy. He’s not crying every day; I AM. I feel my insides brimming with pain. I gave him so many chances. I looked at the good in him but I guess it was all fake. Because a good person won’t hurt someone who loves them, again and again. My true love didn’t deserve the dishonesty and betrayals he gifted it. I wish time would go by quickly and I am healed. I wisb God, or Karma, someday make him realize what he did and what he lost. One can hope.