Over the weekend I had some triggers that brought up pain from a recent loss. ( December )  I understand and acknowledge that this ‘loss’ is actually a blessing in disguise, but the sadness crept in and I found myself living in the past, wishing things had turned out different … wishing I could get back some part of what was. 
Realizing the truth of the situation, I sat on my bedroom floor last night, my arms curled around my legs and I prayed.  I find praying to God a good way to show compassion to myself.  I also reasoned with myself in a loving way, like I was talking to a dear friend.  I told myself that it’s okay to remember.  It’s okay to miss someone.  It’s okay that certain triggers set me off and to know that if that happens in the future, I’ll handle it better.  I rubbed my arms and gave myself a big hug, then got up and stood in front of mirror.  Closing my eyes for a moment so I could feel my team of benevolent Beings who surround me every moment of every day … I opened my eyes, looked directly into them in the mirror and told myself how much I love myself.  I told myself that I know that little girl inside was hurt, and that everything happens for a reason and that we … her and I … were going to be okay.  I told myself how wonderful I am and how much love fills my heart.  I told myself I am beautiful and loving and that it’s his loss he’s no longer a recipient of my love. 
I find mirror work to be a powerful tool of self-compassion.  In fact, I have 5 daily goals and mirror work is one of them and last evening I used that tool to my fullest ability.  I flooded my mind, heart and soul with an abundance of positive affirmations about myself.
Today … well today I feel great!  I am grateful for everything that happens in my life.  Good and bad.

Today I am grateful for …

• This new forum
• Walking away from a political forum where I used to hang out.
• Like-minded people

Hi David,

I’ve dealt with weight, and weight loss my entire life.  Back in September of 2011 I decided enough was enough.  I had spent 44 years of my life eating every kind of food I wanted … most of which left me feeling horrible, looking horrible and pretty much miserable all over.  A few months leading up to this decision, I had already started cutting out certain foods because I finally started listening to my body’s messages.  So what happened was, I learned about glycemic index and the benefits of keeping blood sugar levels balanced.  I am not a diabetic, I do not test my blood sugars, but for some reason, this just made sense.

I gave up the carbs (breads, rice, pasta) and I also gave up the processed sugars and processed everything.  To nutshell it … I pretty much eat eggs, vegies, nuts, berries and meats.  Though I’m trying to cut back on the meats but I just love me some juicy steak!  In a year I dropped just over 50 pounds.  I slowed the process because I started sabotaging myself with delicious Bailey’s Irish cream and a few other sugary items I just love.  I’m happy to report, I’m back on track to release … melt away … dissolve … the last 19 pounds of unwanted, unneeded fat.

So with all that, I exercise.  I take kickboxing class twice a week, a weight class once a week (though I’m thinking about adding another) and I recently started spin once a week.   I love the gym, I love to sweat.  And I never regret a class.

So that’s my story and I’m sticking to it. 

On a side note … I am soooooo happy that Tiny Buddha has these new forums!