Hey Stephanie! I’ve been there. I’ve been there, man, I’ve lived there and I will say this… Lie till it becomes the truth…Its crazy that you write this, I just read an article on here that had something to do with self worth, this line really stuck out to me:
“I began to renew my mind with new thoughts. When a negative thought come to mind, I observed it and then replaced it with a thought that uplifted and affirmed me. In the beginning, it felt like I was lying to myself.”
I know you said you tried that but I really believe its the best way to get out of your own way. You wouldn’t exist if you weren’t good enough. I had to realize this…GOD does not make mistakes. Just make a list of ALL the things about yourself that are positive. Even if the only thing you can write is that you’re honest about your feelings, thats a start. Don’t make a list of the negative…that’s not important. And everyday add one positive thing to it. Really give it an effort, don’t let it become a chore, but understand that this is you deciding to see you as being MORE THAN GOOD ENOUGH. Make that decision! That’s where it starts, with you! Your son is simply mirroring how you feel. Make a commitment that no matter what happens you will see yourself the way you want to see yourself, the list will just help you focus on specific qualities. Now let me ask you, who do you want to be?