Hi Sann 😀 This is my first post here after finding this website today. Today was a terrible day for me for exactly the reasons you are describing here. I have suffered all of my life from social anxiety and isolation. I’ve created some extremely complicated and negative thought patterns which I really would love to change and sometimes I seem to be getting it and then *boom* I have days like today where everything comes closing in on me again. I described it to my husband as feeling like I’m a pile of sludge, glued to the bottom of the lowest part of existence and the weight is so great that I can’t even lift a finger to reach up towards something more. Pretty full on stuff, that is, to carry around every day

I just wanted you to know that you are not alone and to thank you for posting your feelings and experiences here because I have been feeling like I am the only one who experiences these mind patterns and emotions and although I am not happy that you too experience these, I am happy that I finally feel not so alone (I hope that makes sense!)

I wish you all the best for today, tomorrow and every day and I know you will find your tribe.