Hi to the people who read this and the other who respond.
First of all,thanks for supporting me, after i read some post here, and accepting that i have envy for my friends goals and achviments. I started to feel better about myself and what i want for my life.
Thanks janice for your advice about positive rituals , i made some when , i woke up start thinking about the things im greatful and i will try to dont look back more in the past.
Finally i know that if i havent found this site in a near future i will suffered from depression and thats not good,anyways really thanks i feel like i make a great first step and i will improve my self care, we are all special and worth, every people is worth to know .