Thanks you guys, your replies are giving me some courage to let me ask the questions I need to ask myself, which as eclpanth points out, should probably come with asking him.
To answer your question eclpanth, he is currently living abroad, spending most of his time traveling (backpacking around for leisure) in a sort-of indefinite time frame, although his family is here and they expect him to return eventually (family business). He himself is not sure about anything at this point, but more than anything I just want him to have the life that makes him happy, even if that means him living across the ocean. In that sense, too, I’m starting to be calmer because I know deep down we both mean well and want each other to be happy regardless.
So for now I’m taking deep breaths, hope that when I get to see him next weekend after his trip I will get the courage and clear the air and have a nice laugh like we always do!