Hi Che, my heart goes out to you. I have had a similar relationship( or “ship” as I always called it, cause I feel I have been sinking ever since) for the past 5 years but we have only became a couple last year. Same obsessions ect but I made the choice to clean myself fror it 3 months ago and up until this weekend I have stuck to it. This weekend say the return of the sneaky text…you know the ones I mean! I do believe I will always love him but I had to break away from it and start loving myself. The anger has quietened down inside me now and this is the tricky time cause once I have forgiven I start missing him again. I am treating the breakaway as if giving up cigerettes, ie very difficult but gets easier every day and the health benefits outweigh the perks. Keep reading inspirational blogs everyday , exercise and love yourself. x