Thank you all! Yes, that’s probably why I stayed with him for so long – he used to beg me to take him back, cry, told me he loved me etc. And I used to believe him. He bagged his things up and went to Spain without telling me…pretended he was still in the country and I only found out because I rang him and got the international dialling tone. I took him back for the week, then found all these things out. I feel bad also, because when I kicked him out of my apartment, he was wandering around all night with no-where to go. Even though, he told me that he had somewhere to go (his own apartment). But I don’t think he did, I think he used me. He’s blocked me on everything anyway and I can’t get in touch with him, not that I want to. But a part of me did think he would have the decency to apologise or something. Suppose people don’t think the same way. I’ve looked at trauma bonding and it’s defo something that I can relate to!