Hey Shelby … I’ve joined tiny Buddha today itself and ur post threads were the first thing I came across .. I can really feel every single emotion and pain ur going thru as I’ve been a lot thru similar experience in my past .. I will write more but as of now all I can think of is that u need someone to be there to talk to u so u can express u pain and slowly move on and heal … if u don’t mind we can talk wnever u want to and I will help u overcome this as much as I can .. lemme know and I’ll pass on my contact .. Lots of love .. Sal xxx