So many have spoken on the circumstances that your in , so i wont go further except to say –
Are you financially independent ?
Do you have friends, and or people around you who can respect your privacy and offer Compassionate company and connection during this difficult time for you
Have you spent some solo time thinking about your decisions moving forward
Guilt is a big player here – but you are a Worthy woman and the Mother who gave birth to her son , no mother in law should be controlling or giving you Your value.
Reach out for support with people around you you can trust