Inky and Samdlb… thank you so much for your kind words…they actually touched me and you can’t imagine how much I appreciate the time you took to write this things for me. After I wrote my feelings and my thoughts here I felt a bit liberated, but now that I’ve read your responses I get the feeling that the situation isn’t so bad, or how my grandma would say “the devil isn’t that black” .
Inky – adolescents aren’t yet baked into adults and maybe as adults they would see the situation differently and when we’ll meet at the 10th years after graduation party it will be a pleasure to talk to them. Them , the meaty sacs of imperfection (that just stuck in my mind and got a smile out of me). I’ll try to focus on what I can do, instead of what I can’t do, and spelling seems to be a good start thanks to you. Your son is very lucky with such a kind and wise human as a mother 🙂
Samdlb thank you for “Be true to yourself and believe in your decisions and the trust and confidence will grow in who you are.” – it’s now written on a paper on the wall near my desk. I’ve never thought that doing “the right thing” can make you perfect but the little perfectionist inside me that won’t let me sometimes sleep likes the idea.
I wish both of you all the best and I will be forever grateful.