Hi Pearce,

Your speculations are very right. He did mention that he had been too patient with me and he did not want to do it anymore. To answer your question, the reason why I felt like he was perfect for me was the way he treated me. Whenever he was at the super market, he would always check to see if I needed anything. One time he noticed that I had no big knife in my house(I don’t cook)- so next time he came around to visit, he had bought me one. He was soooooo loving and kind to me. He was always kissing my nose and forehead. Not a day would go by where he didn’t tell me that he loved me. We would go for runs together, we would encourage eachother in whatever we were doing in our lives at that current moment. We would stop in the middle of nowhere just to kiss. I hadn’t felt loved that way in a very long time. I felt that he was what I had needed my whole life and that is why it hadn’t worked with anybody else. But I guess if it was true love he wouldn’t of given up. I know that love is not enough, but our relationship was soooooo loving towards eachother- there was sooo much respect for one another there. I messed it up because of my own internal insecurities. Nonetheless, I already did all I could to fix things. Our last conversation on the phone was painful- I was begging him not to break things off and all I could hear him say was ” I gotta go, I am going to hang up now”. – I thought to myself, how can the man that once said that he loved me sooo much and that I never had to feel alone because he would always be there for me, be soooo harsh. I overreacted- I am not perfect. I couldn’t and still cant understand how he couldn’t hold on to our love. He would talk about me all the time to his co-workers and to his friends and he would always tell me about it. I felt his love. Where did that love go? Is not fair.

Hi Anita,

I felt that by him being an MC (Master of Ceremony) with another girl I did not know, he would probably connect with her and leave me. Crazy thoughts like that started to take over my mind. I become anxious when he went to work on the material and I did not hear from him for 4 hours. When I did hear from him I was not happy. He told me that his guy friend had asked him to be an MC because he was funny and I replied ” you are not that funny” but quickly told him that I was just joking. He got upset at that which I understood.

Hi Anita,

Thank you for your reply. I truly do appreciate it. I know I am insecure- I tend to become insecure when I start to love a guy- but in this particular situation, I felt insecure that he would be MCing with a girl. I know its crazy eh?

I have tried soooo hard to fix things. I have asked him for another chance but he wont give it to me. Like I said, I am having a very hard time accepting that it all just ended just like that. I have been waking up at 4am this week with pain in my heart that its all over.