Hello Mefisto, my friend.

Sending you much love and positive energy in this time of darkness that you’re going through.

Sometimes the darkest moments in our lives are the ones that allow for the most growth and transformation. It may not feel like it now but what has happened to you has happened for a reason. Our minds cannot always understand or accept this when we are going through such painful moments in our lives, but please remember this time will pass- the pain will subside, and you will realize that this is just an experience that can be helpful for you.

The wonderful people here have already given some great advice. I would just like to add that it’s ok and normal for you to feel the emotions you’re feeling, and even to feel like there’s no advice that will help.

Just consider that their advice has already helped you, just by them giving it to you they are giving you love (and good ideas in the actions they’ve advised).

And you are already helping to love and heal yourself by reaching out to and connecting with the people here.

In your heart some of this may ring true, even though at this time the pain is so raw your mind will tell you you cannot accept it. But it’s important to remember that you life is not defined by the pain that you are feeling. You are experiencing pain that is totally normal considering that events that have happened in your life. But this pain will pass- their is something deeper at the core of you that will overcome this. We must trust in ourselves that we can always find happiness and deal with these experiences in a way that will allow us to live our lives in love and positivity.

My final most important tip: Focus only on yourself now.
This is a great chance for you to discover who you really are.
Relaxing and Thought Provoking Video on Happiness https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KopmSpe33Eg
and I highly recommend Eckhart Tolle’s book The Power of Now.