Tracey – you say you wouldn’t know where to start with meditation. Why not try Matt’s suggestion then: “Consider “Sharon Salzburg guided metta meditation” on YouTube, if interested.”
I was very dubious about trying it, but can honestly say that each time I listen to it, it helps me to be much kinder to myself, and as a result, less sad. What is there to lose by trying listening to it every day for a week?
I too need to ‘pull up my big girl pants’ and stop leaning on others so much. 🙂 It’s not easy, but staying down in the dark pit on my own isn’t much fun either.
Go on, give the meditation a try, even if you’re sceptical. Wishing you well.