Dear Anita

yes I’ve learned about mindfulness but not alot. I’m afraid not to do some wrong moves, where I would just supress and mask my pain and feelings and then later in life figure that out and have them all comeing back even stronger. I really don’t know how to deal with it, what mindset to adopt and what to do. At least what I would like is to have some peace in my mind.

It seems like I still can’t accept that whole thing beeing over just cause of the distance. Because when I love someone, it doesn’t matter how far you are, if I love you I live for the moment when we’ll be together again. It pains me alot just writing about it, and I really wanna thank you for taking the time to help me.

I’m 24 years old and I already feel like there’s no point in living. I know I can be successfull and everything, but those facts don’t make me feel better or happy or something. Everybody is telling me that it’ll be better with time, and there are days where I feel fine, don’t think about it much and it’s ok. But then there’re days where I feel like I lost a part of me and that I lost my soulmate.

I’m willing to try and do anything to change this, cause I’m the type of person who can help others and make them laugh and everything, but I just can’t help myself. You know the feeling when for example, a person would need another hearth to live on, and you would give it for them without thinking even if they aren’t in your life anymore? well that’s how I feel, and hve felt that way since the beginning of the relationship.

Would give anything to change that, but don’t know how anymore.

p.s. thank you again for taking your time for me, it really means alot