Hi Jill,
Thanks for giving me advice!
I am an international student studying here for almost 3 years. It was my own idea of coming to a foreign country for my studies cuz I love politics a lot and at the age of 16 I felt disgusting about my country’s political atmosphere so I asked my parents to send me aboard. My initially goal was to get an international degree here but well now everything is changed as I mentioned in my story. I am now living in a new host family but I don’t talk and hang out to them as much as I used to do with my former host family I feel sorry but I can’t help. I indeed love my former host family more.
Yes there are quite a lot of international students at school but I only hang out few. Not many true friends in school. The only time they come to me is when they want to copy my homework…I have no problem dealing with this kind of things though,,,but yes I feel quite lonely sometimes. My only best friend in school is a girl who is so hardworking..though we dont speak the same mother tongue we discuss studies a lot. She is going back to her country this month 🙁

I am not sure if I am capable to be an engineer. Although I have ambition I still doubt about myself a lot. Ive got early admissions from 2 schools but I know that get entrance and capable to graduate are two different things!!

By the way, eventhough I told myself not to contact with P, I created a new account to send message to P, he explained that its because his girlfriend doesn’t want P to message a lot with a strange girl. Somehow I feel relieved. It was because his girlfriend not because of P. No matter what he said is true or not I am accepting the one that make me feel happier. I am too tired to think the negative. I am afraid that it will effect my study. I admit I am a grade-orientated student(bad thing!!)

School reopen tomorrow. Hope everything will be going well for me. I realize that all the schools I have applied I chose engineering faculty…seems like I have no way of going back. Thank you Jill and yes I will study hard and sleep well eat well…I am going to be an engineer 🙂 like J.