Hi Nikki
I think we can all relate to your story some way or the other. You have made me realize how people like us are not alone. I recently had a similar incident. Weird how we Indians are talking about parental pressure. I had a beautiful relationship for a year having being friends with this guy for 3 years before that. We never realized how and when our friendship transformed into love. We stood by each other through thick and thin, first as friends and then as lovers. Until last year when my family started to insist on marriage. The guy was more than happy and our families met. His family who has agreed to our alliance before however changed their heart the day we met because I was older to him by few years. Yet he assured me he is standing by me. And then I went to India end of the year, only to return to a broken world. 4 days into me returning back, the first day we met after my 3 week long India trip, he broke off with me. Parental pressure, he admitted it plus certain family matters had changed the dynamics he said. I was lost and shattered. I lost my appetite. I was fixed at that moment when he left me and I didn’t know how to wake myself up from that nightmare. Slowly, I am coming terms to reality. It has been a difficult process after giving yourself 100% into something you believe in, but once your start your journey to rediscovering yourself, you will make progress.

You will go through the blame, anger phase where you will blame yourself, the world, him, his parents, everyone you could possibly blame. That’s fine. But try to consciously draw line to that. Don’t let that take over you. In last 2 months, I have slowly learnt not to hold grudges. It difficult but that’s important.
Also remember, you are having it better than many others. And that’s true. While I was crying my lungs out on my loss, I met my friend who didn’t just lose father but also a love relationship. I realized my problem was smaller compared to hers.

So, don’t feel dejected. It’s okay to vent out your emotions once in a while. But don’t let them take over you. Stay positive. Do things you like to do. I have started nurturing my hobbies and I have realized how much I had neglected myself. It’s great to discover your own self. You are the key to your happiness! All the Best *hug*