Dude,

Depression is one of the constant phenomena that life has. But always remember that it is just a phase and what keeps it to haunt us over and over is our own motivation and outlook. It is also important that you identify the things that trigger your depression and accept it fully. It is only then that we take full control of the situation and champion our life. I’ve had several moments of depression before but I always see to it that I conquer it by means of acceptance and make sure to keep going.
I think you are a brave man and you haven’t lost all your confidence yet. The fact that you can write about your problem and seek advise to the public is a solid proof of your strong will to overcome it. And ALWAYS remember my friend that Suicide is NEVER a solution to a problem it will just perpetuate the problem. Often suicide victims thought that taking away their lives ends the misery, the pain the chain of problems, but the truth is they just let problem rule over them forever.. which is a big NO.. 🙂 All of us are champions and the mere fact that we are alive is a great proof that we are worth to enjoy life.
I would suggest that you keep on doing the things that you love the most. If it is creating music or video blogs on youtube then GO! Just convert all your frustrations and depression to music.. I would also suggest you try to catch some fresh air and a good jog at the park ( I always do that every weekends) it will help release hormones to help you naturally deal with ebb moments. PLUS.. make lots of friends.. it is always great to have someone to talk to and share thoughts on anything about everything..

Cheer up Dude 🙂

Your friend,
Redz