I am so sorry to read this. But your life is not over, and what you describe is fixable. You WILL get through this hard period, and you will be able to pursue your dreams. But you have to be really brave for a little while, and trust that it’s not forever. I too am going through a horrible depression, and actually taking action seems so impossible. Please ask yourself what you, independent of all of these other people, need to be happy. In your wildest imagination, what does your life look like? Can you write down steps to take, even tiny tiny ones, to start moving in that direction? One little thing to do each day? It doesn’t have to be much. If you think too big, it’ll seem too hard and you won’t be able to move. But one little thing a day? YOU CAN DO THAT. Make sure these things are things that are going to help you on the path that is your path, and not the one that others want for you. If these two paths aren’t the same, then they might be angry. But isn’t it better to have them feel angry at you than to feel the way you do right now?

I too have hurt that much. I have. You are strong. There is a big world out there and this doesn’t have to be your reality. It doesn’t. All of the things you think are holding you back can be overcome. They CAN.

Step one, breathe. Focus on breathing. You’re still alive. You’re not alone.