Hello everyone..thankyou so much for replying to this post 🙂

hi @Matt SIR(sir because due to ur wisdom..i consider u elder to me)
thanks for ur words.. Yes im not very good when it comes to writing..that too when im expressing something personal n emotional.. my friends complains the same abt what u wrote.. i agree i might lack some knwledge..but it has more to do wid d adrenaline rush as my my blood pressure shoots when im writing..my thoughts run faster than my fingers n i miss many words..vovels..even sentenses… i promise u..i will do my h.w. from now on..n will practice writing like u all write here.. really im a fan of ur writting skills.. pls add me in d fan list 😀
thanks.

Hello MY DEAR @Jasmine-3 how are you.. i knew u wud reply on this post.. thanks for that..
i seriously felt i hav a connection wid u..a deeper one.. after reading this particular reply of urs… i now imagine u more like a elder sister to me.. though till this day i hav imagined u as a person..:) but now we are sisters 🙂
Yes i agree wid all what u have written.. but der is a change in me..a positive one..which i dint mention in d post.. that ealier i used to think that i can change people..der mindset…der behaviour..particularly of those who were suffering due to lack of trust in themselves n in GOD. I used to believe if i leave a person who is suffering..i wud not be able to live peacefully ever in my life.. i used to take up d responsibility of his/her pain n problems n wud devote my time , efforts, energies,thoughts..unconditionally to his/her problem n life…
i hav been a person who believed dat we meet people to bring positive changes in der lives…
yes al des thoughts n actions of mine in d past hav made me feel very low n depressed but in last few weeks..i have realized..im not a saviour..even with my best of intensions n care ..i cant be a saviour to person who is himself/herself not willing to change.. now i practice compassion n pray for them..n dont push them…neither push myself to change everythng overnight.. im seriously having tough time seeing many suffer,, despite knwing the problem n a way out to der negativity.. now i practice self talk..i tel myself dat….all i can do is just make dem feel im der for them ..whenevr they need me… n i pray for the clarity n happiness in der life..!
thats it..but this particular situation..when al dis started..i was still d old me..who wanted to bear the pain..punishments ..n shed tears for the one suffering…i used to suffer more.. may be i was tooo emotional..
but trust me..now im not like this.. n EB has hurt me….but not dat too hard.. because i hav become a little better.. all thanks to people here on Tiny Buddha.. those who post here..n dos who reply wid der wisdom … all the speaking trees..youtube motivational videos..tedx videos..self help books..im a better person everyday..
im hurt because of his abusive way of ending the so-called friendship..
thanks once again..im sending some more (hugs) n yes i hav promised @Matt that i will improve my writing 🙂 i knw i need to ..:)

hi @Big blue..
thanks …wid ur reply i got a chance to look at the situation from his angle.
im sorry for ur pain… i hope u r healing now….
friend i belive in my situation ..he was already well informed by the girl that she is not interested in any such things ,as she is totally into her carrier… n my care towards him was more like as a friend… he used to talk abt his personal life…he used to make me feel soo bad abt his condition that now i think..that it was a complete emotional blackmail.. he cried in front of me…he lied to me.. he did everythng to impress me.. knowing that whatever im doing is because we wer frnz.. and moreover..he has seen me taking care of our oder classmates..be it guy or a girl.. i hav never done anythng special for him..which wud make him blame me dat i hav made him to fall for me.. he has seen me being der for our very dear mutual guy frnd..when he was going thru a tough time… and that guy(our mutual frnd) never came wid a proposal..he consider me a very good frnd..n shares his secrets wid me.!! i think i hav become defensive now 🙂 but thats how things wer…
im praying for him.. but yes im still hurt..im practicing compassion.. hope we heal.. n move ahead in life..happy wherever we r..
thanks friend ..ya we are beautifully complex:) God Bless 🙂

hi @Maureen.. thanks dear for ur words.. you are correct in writing abt boundaries n love
i need to be more clear wid d boundaries which i think i hav n i practice.. i should not hurt anyone including myself..
hope you are doing well.. 🙂

Hi @Jasmine-3 how are u..
thankyou sooo much for your kind words..ahh..i feel soo gooood..i cant tel u..
jas i can just tel u that i believe that we all just a smile or ‘hello’ away from each oder.. we all are made of same ingredients..we all want love safety friendship..security n fun in life….. in this quest some become littel different some indifferent n some compasionate…. we dont knw each oder ..but see how u replied to me..n trust me..i felt very nice..i felt i was taken care of..i felt somebody was der to listen …to knw how i was feeling.. we all one… so no point in hatred n jealousy or any negative emotions.. though i become sad manyatimes when i feel left out by people i care for..but then i bring peace to me by practicing Compassion…
n jas i wud like to tel u dat u r a wonderful person..despite of ur claims of not being caring n empathetic..trust me.. i hav read ur other posts here..n im glad we hav u here.. a person wid balanced thinking an dapproach towards life.. u use heart n mind wisely in situations… 🙂
thanks for healing… yaa pls keep in touch 🙂

hello @sammykins and @Jasmine-3 🙂 thankyou for replying..
i was in so much of emotional pressure..that cudnt write properly coz i wanted to write n tel so much..but was not able to do so..

@jasmine-3 im really not that young..i think u r tooo young..( im not taking age as my base of writing this) becoz u hav such a fresh thinking n way of seeing things..i saw ur posts earlier also..n i want to thankyou from bottom of my heart for replying to those who really need the push..:) thats really sweet of you..
in my situation..i have explained him that his gf is his priority..if he is wid her..that means he is happy in this relation..so no point thinking on oder things.. i prayed for him..i m trying to be more compassionate towards him.. but all this has made me think too much on Human Nature..i mean.. how can we be wid full commitment with somebody..apparently happy n enjoing n yet have a special feeling n place intact for someone… i m shocked.. its been long that they r committed,..still he had d guts to tel me abt his love n feelings for me..he said he has never missed anyone in his life ever..like he has missed me.. twas strange ..n its harder to think hw people r ..n complex relations r made..just by ignoring our thoughts…
im thankful that he confessed..i think this will bring him some peace in coming days n he might start forgetting me n al d related things…
my prayers r wid both of them…
thanks 🙂

Sorry for d poor writing..my apologies…