But the second time i feel really sorry for him nd somewhat guilty because as our communications started to fade.. It was almost 3 weeks we were nt talking or talking very little… Thn he got a bike accident.   He thn Texted me… I wrote him take care of ur self nd we dint talk alot…

So day before yesterday he was telling mr that whn he got accident he was having his first aid but  he was asking his friends for balance.  Because he wanted to inform me… Nd thn he added he tried to call me but i dint talk. I dont remember that he calld me i just remember his text which i replied… Nd our contact jst faded…  I dint text him nd He never tried to call me n last 2 yrs fr any explanation or break up nor i did… But i felt guilty tht he had accident nd i wasnt there fr him as i should have been… Bcz in his eyes we were in relationship… Nd fr me tht was ended.

Dear Anita…

Thank you for your last post it just gave me some relaxation by knowing i m not a villain lr a bad person by breaking up with him nd falling out of love because of lack of emotional connection nd communication..

But somehow his efforts nowadays are making me feel bad.. As i told him honestly everything that how i feel in ths relationship he is scared now. He is trying to call me nd text me multiple times.. Trying to ask me about what i like, my friends now… Etc…

I know this person frm last 8 years nd after 3 months of relationship now he is trying to communicate to me… Trying to make me laugh or telling me his sad story that he laughs all the time but its only showing off… He is not happy inside…

But the strange thing is he was showing the same “showing off”  i mean laughing nd joking all the time infront of me too…. I never saw  real  him… Nd he never realised ths either.. I dont knw wether these are truth or lie or exaggerated or he is only making me to feel sympathy for him nd stay…

Talking to him nd watching him to making effort now makes me sad too.. Because i start yo feel he loves mw but why dont i have that love feeling for him… I Start to blame me for feeling ths way nd breaking his heart….

In last 8 years he never opened himself infront of me nd in 2 days he is very open, interested to know my opinion, interested to know my friends now.. He dint even know my friends or best friend name… Yesterday he came to know… …if it was so easy for him why he never put any efforts for us…or may b he never realised thats important too??

He sent me poetry today  because he thinks i am angry at him so it was a sad poetry.. I dont remember in whole relationship he ever sent me anything to make me feel loved.. Like a romantic poetry abt missing me or singing a song for me ( even though i asked him almost 100 times to sing for me.. May b its silly to ask for this)

I m just thinking all day long about ths situation.. And  trying to end ths.

I m just writing ths all so that i feel a bit better to share… Tht how thinking abt ths all day long is just making me feel depressed nd slow..

Dear Anita,

Thank you so much for your response.

As u asked me some questions i m going to replying u one by one.

You and him have been in a relationship since 2011, in person (not online), beginning with you being 14 and him 23?

So we both were mostly on texts and call.we were living in same city and.we used to meet once in every 1-2 months in one ice cream shop near my house… Nd 2 times in restaurant nd once we went to a beach… It was 2013 when we last met… But he wasnt affectionate in person too.. Once i tried to touch him for the first time. I was touching his finger he start making joking  abt it nd laughing at me for finding excuse to touch him. He thought it was funny but not for me ..it hurted me alot but i was always quite… But now he has changed he doesn’t do such things..

During the relationship he never said anything like: I like you/ I love you/ I like spending time with you, and did he ever take you to a movie or a restaurant (a date)?

Ya he tells me he loves me nd like me nd want to live his life with me. Apart from these 2 – 3 things he says nothing..doesnt open up to me..and i stopped opening up my  self to him.. I could never make that emotional connection to him… To tell him my worst experience of my life or whatsoever…. Yes