Hello Anita,

Thank you for your response.. Yes he told me he needs time from me almost 1 year and 1.5 so that his ex issues finishes thn he can go ahead with me officially…

I dint get your these lines  completely…

You don’t owe him to be in a relationship with him, and you don’t owe your friend (his roommate) to be in a relationship with him,

Dear Anita,

Thank you so much for writing me back… Actually i read it but before even reading it..i told him about my previous relationship and also told him that i m not a virgin… He was  very okey with it and he also told me that he was in a marriage nd now divorced.

Actually after knowing this about him i felt very comfortable wd him.. Nd i felt i m not only one who has a past..

We are still togather…he tallks about us nd out future, he talks about our marriage that how and when he is thinking to do it. I conclude from his such talking that he is serious about us.. .. . I appreciate your time and energy for everytime for reading and replying my posts…

Thank you ❤️

Dear Anita,

Very glad to read this “I do walk every day and my physical and mental health seems fine to me.”

I hope things get normal in few months and finally we will be able to meet our loved ones nd friends in personal like before…

Yes i ll post here any time… Till then you will be in my prayers… Thank you for your time and efforts for reading my and our issues… A big Thanks from my side…. ❤️

Take care of yourself…i ll be posting here in future for sure…

Puppo

Dear Anita,

As u asked,

was wondering, did you relate to Kaira in the movie as far as having issues with her parents, particularly being abandoned by your parents in some form?

Actually no. I dint relate to her.. But i felt how she must be feeling… Even though i had not a happy childhood, i felt unloved, wished to be dead because no one shows me affection, appreciation, care, love apart from my mom… I was very sensitive… I used to cry alone nd used to pray to God for death in childhood… I was scared from my male cousins, because they never respected me or loved me as a child as we were very poor..

At age of 11 i was forced to stay home by my cousin because he thought i m now grown up nd shouldn’t go outside… All i have is those harsh memories….

Dear Anita,

As u wrote,

“Be selective: if you contacted your most recent ex, that would have been a mistake because he would drag you down, not pick you up!”

Ya that could be a mistake nd i felt more miserable.. Because i was unintentionally waiting fr him to reach out to me etc after that conversation… Nd i also know that its not a wise decision for both of us… Because of all family drama…

Un ur another post you asked me about my study major so that u could recommend me something..so i m going to start Medical Informatics.. Its about IT…

Dear Anita,

I m happy for you that u are doing very healthy activities in this locked down…☺️

And may be there is something i want to share with you here… My ex reached to me almost 3 weeks before… We are broken up almost 7 months before…we were in same city and we were so connected and in love with each other.everything was great .. I moved to new city thn because of misunderstanding.i felt he doesn’t trust me . Nd without any break up everything finished… He was mad at me and i was at him…

In these 7 months i have already moved on nd everything… After his reaching out i was okey too… I dint care i talkd very normally… Replied very respectfully… 3rd day he called again i dint pick up… But just before 5 days i was sitting in balcony i broke down while missing him… i started thinking how mch i loved him nd how mch we enjoyed laughed.. Did everything together.. And why ths happened how could he just leave me when we were doing so great… Etc….nd the only question in my mind was why didnt he trust me???

And just before 2 days before i watched a bollywood movie ” Dear Zindagi” which means (Dear Life) its about a girl who faces problems with are relationships (love, family, work) nd goes to a therapist which explains her about how to find solutions of her problems…

So in one scene that therapist says to her ” why suffer alone, let the other person know about it”

I understood it in that way that why am i carrying that burden of those questions on my shoulders i should better ask him….

So yesterday night again i broke down while missing him… Nd asking my self the same question how could he not trust me…because i invested alot in him… So it was 1 am at night… Nd i felt like i want to know the only answer… Nd i calld him nd we talked nd i asked him the question first he said leave ths question thn i said i want to know and he said yes its ur right to know…

Nd he explained me that he dint have trust issues he was just angry etc….. Nd it was a friendly conversation..

Now today all day long i was thinking about my yesterday conversation nd unintentionally waiting for his text.. Or what he may b thinking.?..

How is it possible that i went from move on to thinking about him so much… Nd missing him even though i have moved on frm him…

What is your thinking about it?

Dear Anita…

I have broken up with him… And i m feeling better… I have no guilt…. But i m feeling sk empty in this locked down… I have nothing to do… Feeling hopeless.. Low energy…

Dear Anita,

As you asked me,

why is it that you feel that you owe him anything, what did he give you that you feel indebted for?

So  i dont know what to reply you… Some how i feel i owe him because i committed to stay in a relationship… And he has a different mentality… What i came to know about him in past 3 days is, he thinks it doesn’t matter what happens a person should never leave another person…

Nd i said everyone has their needs… Nd whn these needs doesn’t get fulfilled we start to gradually feel differently.. May be out of love smtimes…. Nd thn he adds, no thats not true as he never the person it doesn’t matter what happens…. Thn i told him “we both see the world differently” …

Nd let me cme to ur question. So no he did nothing that i owe him anything… He gave me time nd that was mutual….

Nd i dont remember anything…

The only thing i liked about him that i thought he straight forward, honest nd not flirt and a good men….. I was never physically attracted to him and we are not emotionally connected either…..