Dear friends,

Journaling came in as a real good help for me too. And also silence has come handy at times of anger and despair.
As a child my life was very good till my lil brother was born. I thought it to be a boon. But soon realized it came in as a bane and my parents started differentiating in our bringing up and I was kinda affected by all this. We both were brought up by my grandparents and they were the ones who supported me during this pain and made my healing process really fast. But after my lovely angel, my grandmom passed away I again got into the neglected mode and that was the main reason I started truting a man outside of my family and sought love fron him . I also believed him to be the perfect man for my life that god has sent and I went against all odds to get married to him.
To make things clear, this is the first ever time that he has lost my trust and I also believe that the affair that he had was a passing one and only lasted for a very short while say 2 or 3 months. But that too was really devastating for me as it was least expected. I am sure he did not do it with an intention to hurt me. Neither will he do it ever again. Just that it is becoming hard to regain that trust again.

Thanks

Hi,
My husband cheated on me 7 years after our love marriage while I was away for my delivery. Things had always been just perfect for me all these years , lots of love , trust and respect despite so many obstacles and I was on top of the world. I never even expected that such a thing would ever even happen with me. Totally shattered after I came to know about this infedility when I was back home with a 4 month old little baby angel. It all turned out be the result of some bad intuitions I had been experiencing just before I went back home. It has been a hell for me to stay with him since then and is almost over an year now . He also had to confess helplessly and made several promises not to repeat this. Can’t understand whether to blindly trust him or not like before. I never trusted him after that horrible encounter and am facing a lot of pain,stress and anxiety due to all this. Just as I think that everything is back to normal considering all his apologies and faith building words and actions, things go wayward and it all ends up in a miserable fight and makes it really hard for me to forgive him and be happy myself. Things are better though , I feel I am just not like before and had to force myself to undergo a lot of personality changes as result of all this.The relationship between us has turned really sour and I feel it has become irreparable. . Please advice on leading a healthy life with a healthy mind because divorce is just impossible. I also feel really bad for making him guilty of his act time and again. I feel I have lost control on my mind after this incidence and finding it very difficult to get back on my track of managing home, Kid and also a hectic work. I have off late started avoiding him as much as possible which has never happened in the last 14 years of our total relationship. becomes really hard to stay with all this in mind and still get along with the normal chores. I feel I have been strong enough to deal with all this without any emotional support all this while. But break down at times even without my knowledge. I am losing myself from within.