@Anita
Hey Anita,

Maybe it is self serving drama. I think I just never say such extreme things without meaning them.
And in part I wanted to take it seriously i think.

@Matty
Dear Matty,
Pride this in an interesting angle! In one talk he said that his overthinking-rational attitude is only to controll the outcome and have perfection. He agrees, that this is keeping him from doing things, out of fear/loosing controll. It might be a way as you suggested in getting back in controll and showing himself, that he is able.
This is all so corupted- he told me: Your wholeness is like a burden for me and I feel, that I cannot carry it.
….
Mathilda

@Anita
Dear Anita,

your suggestion, that he might be in the new relationship in order to distract him of his fear is something that I have thought of as well.
Actually the way he has described himself in the end to me was very fearful, avoidant etc. It just makes me so sad, that he seems to have a certain awareness of these things, but is not willing/cannot accept it or work on it.
It is kind of likely, that he distracts himself through the new relationship.
Still it hurts me very much, when breaking up he gave me all this talk, how he d rather drown in an ocean of futility instead of hurting me more, he loves me still but it will change, what things were so great about me, how I was his chance for being happy, …
Everything is so dramatic and then he turns around as nothing has happened.
I was holding my heart out and all I have and he did not want it.
This gives a sting to an old wound (never good enough)- I know that it is not me (intellectually, but I can get caught on the thought.)

Hey tri808,
I knew him for a couple of months and I saw that he is melancholic, dramatic, ect. But I genuinely trusted him and wanted to believe his sincerity. And I am just thinking that I would have wanted to protect myself from that.